Having to return to university for an extremely busy 4th year is going to be really depressing. I hate my major already without having to overload my schedule with MORE of it. At least there is a bright light at the end of the tunnel. I may be able to return to Japan after I am done.
Living in Japan has left me with mixed emotions though. I want to come back because it is a beautiful place to live and I love the language and studying it, but then I look at the negative aspects and there is hesitation. I cannot stand so many things about Japan, such as the borderline racist, xenophobic attitude of most of the population, and the fact that there the Japanese government plays a very small part in protecting people living here. I have lost track of the times that I have gone to the hospital and was either misdiagnosed or underdiagnosed. I think that over time, as my Japanese develops, I will have a much easier time and at this point, most of the staring or speaking about me like I wasn't 5 feet away has lost its shock value. I am just going to finish my degree and then see how I feel. I think thats reasonable.
I went to round one last night, which is a rather large arcade/sports complex where you can stay all night and enjoy sports, video games, massage chairs, internet cafe, and karaoke, all for the price of a North American movie ticket. I have been 4 times so far, and I want to go again before I leave. Its a good chance to spend time with friends, and stay up late. These are the things that I will miss most about Japan I think. Mostly the childish stuff, but I think that's what attracts me to Japan the most. No matter how old you are here, you still have so many ways to act like a kid and enoy yourself.